Hey!!!!!

My sweetheart got my package today!!!!!!! =D Now there're gonna be two donkeys, one in Wien the other one in Terrassa, always at the same time =D =D =D I am sooooo glad you like what I sent you!!!!! Well, that was the purpose... I am so smart, c? ;)

 

+ I got Heather's letter today, which I'm gonna write back this week hopefully. I have soooo much work... OMG... At least I am nearly finished with my Gèneres paper, I'm so glad...!!!!!! But I still must study for a lot of other exams... I start with Lingüistics today.

 

Oh, later on tonight I'll try write back my Johi's e-mail =D =D =D So sweeeeeeeeeet!!!!!!!!! I wonder, how can he get on well with that stupid H... But we don't have to question everything in life, so...=D

 

Then I also wanna start studying German, trying to be better at it. If there is any way I could end up speaking and writing real German, PLEAS TELL ME!!!!! ='''(

 

Anyways, I must go study now.

 

Bussi!!!!!!

Cascando

1

why not merely the despaired of
occasion of
wordshed

is it not better abort than be barren

the hours after you are gone are so leaden
they will always start dragging too soon
the grapples clawing blindly the bed of want
bringing up the bones the old loves
sockets filled once with eyes like yours
all always is it better too soon than never
the black want splashing their faces
saying again nine days never floated the loved
nor nine months
nor nine lives

2

saying again
if you do not teach me I shall not learn
saying again there is a last
even of last times
last times of begging
last times of loving
of knowing not knowing pretending
a last even of last times of saying
if you do not love me I shall not be loved
if I do not love you I shall not love

the churn of stale words in the heart again
love love love thud of the old plunger
pestling the unalterable
whey of words

terrified again
of not loving
of loving and not you
of being loved and not by you
of knowing not knowing pretending
pretending

I and all the others that will love you
if they love you

3

unless they love you

 

(S. Beckett, 1936)

 

Samuel Beckett

Cascando

1

why not merely the despaired of
occasion of
wordshed

is it not better abort than be barren

the hours after you are gone are so leaden
they will always start dragging too soon
the grapples clawing blindly the bed of want
bringing up the bones the old loves
sockets filled once with eyes like yours
all always is it better too soon than never
the black want splashing their faces
saying again nine days never floated the loved
nor nine months
nor nine lives

2

saying again
if you do not teach me I shall not learn
saying again there is a last
even of last times
last times of begging
last times of loving
of knowing not knowing pretending
a last even of last times of saying
if you do not love me I shall not be loved
if I do not love you I shall not love

the churn of stale words in the heart again
love love love thud of the old plunger
pestling the unalterable
whey of words

terrified again
of not loving
of loving and not you
of being loved and not by you
of knowing not knowing pretending
pretending

I and all the others that will love you
if they love you

3

unless they love you

(S. Beckett, 1936)

YEEAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I finally got the package and the letter!!!!!!!!!!!! After waiting for one month!!!!!!! I hate the Post Office.... But now I'm soooo happy!!!! And my parents are so happy too!!!!!!!

Hey... I have an ask... Will I ever be able to speak fluent German...????? I REALLY wish sooo... But I don't know how to do it... ='''(

I'm really fed up with the literature paper... I've been trying to write much of it this afternoon, and I just run out of ideas, plus it's really tireing... I need hope!!!!! And imagination!!!! And resistence!!!!!!! Aw...

Anyways... busy life the one of a student...

 

Wow, I just watched American History X. I hadn't watched it yet, and I absolutely love it!!!!! (It's been from my DVD player to my DVD recorder in 3 seconds, hehehe...). And, OMG, I cried SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much.....!!!!!!!!! But still, I love it  =)  HIIIGHLY recommended by me to everybody who still hasn't seen it.

Well... I don't know... Keep your fingers X...

Well, I just went to the hairdresser this morning, and I look a bit different *LOL*

It is 50 years today since one of our train stations in Terrassa was built, and the city center is full of people dressed like in those times, and it was really beautiful, with all the dresses girls used to bring then...

But now I'm home, and I'm gonna go on with my French book, and with "Jekyll & Hyde".

Kiss!

MUSIK: Wir Sind Helden - "Nur ein Wort"

 

Hello!!!!

A really calm Friday. I have been writing letters for the whole morning *LOL* and eating stupid things. I feel so faaaat right now!!!!!

It's really sunny outside, I should have something to do there on the street, it's so pretty!!!

Well, my plans for this afternoon are:

 

           1) Talking to my swee sis (what I am already doing)

           2) Start learning French

           3) Read some more pages of "Dr.Jekyll & Mr.Hyde"

           4) Start studying for my exams

 

But I guess that by the end of the day I'm not gonna have done half of them *LOL*

I'm still trying to get a job for July and August, because I need some money to go to Wien in Winter (YAYYYYYY!!!!!!!!). I know I can work in a bar anywhere here, because I have experience and they'd say "yes" immediately, but the thing is that I know that'd be working so hard for so much time for not that much money, so I think it's not worth it. If anyone has any idea of where I could get a summer job, PLZ let me know!!!!

 

Well, I better go do something useful now, hehehe.

 

Hello.

It was a bad day today. We took only one class at uni today, because there was Idontknowwhich students demonstration, and of course this was an excuse to stop classes. I had time to go home and then go to Barcelona again to be at the speech therapist at 14h, but I would have to walk and catch different trains too many times, so I just went to FNAC. I was there for about two hours and a half (and finally bought the Autolearning French course, let's see whether my idea of French changes a bit). Then I went to the speech therapist, and I got back home  at 16h. I watched "El Cor de la Ciutat", and then went to my room.

I feel so... mmm... I don't know how to say that... useless? Lonely? Bad? All at the same time. And that's a really bad feeling, I wouldn't wish anyone to feel like this, really.

But, hey, life's unfair, I know that for facts. And while stupid people are lucky and happy, we the ones who are good people are sunk in misery and decadence.

Fuck.

Can I disagree with you...?????? Danke!!!

It is me who doesn't find the right words to describe Austrian guys... let me see... no, there's not such a great word to describe them... Well, ALL of them are like that, BUT ONE: H2. He's surely not gonna read this never ever, so I can openly say his name *lol* The rest, that means for instance... (shy right now) (*LOL*) J, G (yeah, asshole, and too tall, I know, but... ok, skip this one *lol*), B, H (the great one), C...

See????? That's an argumentative answer!!!!!!!

La historia ocurrió hace algún tiempo, y aunque parezca sacado de una película de Alfred Hitchcock, dicen que fue real y que pasó cerca del pantano de Alarcón, en Cuenca.
Un hombre estaba parado a la orilla de la carretera a medianoche haciendo autostop, mientras estaba cayendo una tormenta tremenda.
Pasó un tiempo pero nadie se paraba para llevarlo. La tormenta era tan fuerte que apenas si se alcanzaba a ver a unos 3 metros de distancia.
De repente, vio como un coche con las luces apagadas se acercaba lentamente y al final se detuvo frente a él.
El hombre sin dudarlo, por lo precario de su situación, se sube al coche y cierra la puerta.
Mira hacia el asiento de al lado y se da cuenta con asombro de que nadie va conduciendo el coche.
El coche arranca suave y pausadamente. El hombre comienza a escuchar voces que susurran algo que no entiende, y oye jadeos y quejidos, pero, no hay nadie dentro del
coche.
Mira hacia adelante, a la carretera y con horror se percata de que delante hay una curva.
Asustado, comienza a rezar e implorar por su salvación al advertir su trágico destino.
Aún no ha terminado de salir de su espanto cuando, justo antes de llegar a la curva,
aparece una mano tenebrosa por la ventana del chofer y mueve el volante lentamente pero con firmeza.
Paralizado por el terror y sin aliento, medio cierra los ojos y se aferra con todas sus fuerzas al asiento; inmóvil e impotente ve cómo sucedía lo mismo en cada curva del oscuro camino, y los quejidos y jadeos aumentaban en cada momento, lo que le provoca ba tal espanto que cada vez se acurrucaba más en el asiento.
De pronto escucha unas voces jadeantes que le dicen...
-No te escondas, que te vemos,....¿por qué te escondes?.?
Totalmente helado por el pánico, tras varios segundos sin atreverse a contestar, y ante la insistencia de las voces que le repetían lo mismo una y otra vez, responde.....
-¡Por favor no me hagais nada!, ¡Por favor no!.
A lo que escucha un voz ronca, fuerte y clara que le dice....
¿Que no te hagamos nada Hijo de Puta?, como no salgas del coche y empujes como los demás, te vamos a inflar a ¡¡¡¡¡¡HOSTIAS!!!!!!.